I have been constantly fatigued all week! I literally can't make it through the day without taking at least a 45 minute nap. I looked this up, hopefully this fatigue will pass soon. Today though, unfortunately, was one of those days when a nap was just not possible, (ya I know, poor me). That's how life goes though and we have to truck through it. I had a busy day, full of errands, doctors, and homework. While doing all of this though, my family and friends are telling me that I can't do any of this. They're all telling me 'you're pregnant, go lie down on the couch, put off the laundry and groceries until tomorrow'. I'm pregnant, not incompetent! I don't like being told that I can't give an extra hand with something, or have to delay what needs to be done so i can rest instead. I'm only 10 weeks pregnant! Am I supposed to be sedentary until the baby is born? I completely understand I need to slow down a bit more with all the changes my body is going through but I will not just sit around and be useless!
Of course though, after getting all worked up about people telling me 'not to lift that' or 'don't do that' or 'just lay down and wait till later' I got home from the grocery store before dinner... Apparently, though I hate to admit it, I should have taken it a bit slower today. I sat in the car with my son and the groceries looking at the short walk to my front door with dread for five minutes before I could get the strength to convince myself that I have enough energy to bring everything in. Well I couldn't find that energy. Thankfully my son came to my rescue and carried most of the groceries in for me. Once in the kitchen, it turned into a pathetic scene. I literally could not stand I was so exhausted, lightheaded, and starving. So I sat on the kitchen floor, pulled all the grocery bags close to me and had to load the food in the fridge and cabinets from there. And yes I did open the orange juice and drink right out of the container, the glasses were just too high for me at that moment. What am I turning into? I feel like a sloth. I was 20 years old when I had my son and had a fantastic pregnany, no complaints. Now at 26 what has changed? I really didn't think I was that much older! Does just a few years make this much of a difference when you're pregnant? Keep in mind, I've always been active, skinny, and in relatively good shape. So why does everything I do now feel like a marathon?
30 weeks to go and feeling completely useless.
Your blog has really captivated me because I can't wait to start my family, but I have no idea what pregnancy is like because all my cousins were born before me, and my siblings are both adopted. I am excited to learn more. Also, I like your writing style. It is funny and personal, which I think is perfect for a blog!
ReplyDeleteI like that you took the time to sit in your car and muster your energy. In yoga, we practice "savasana," a.k.a. "corpse pose." It is when you take a time to lie perfectly still, like a corpse, and thank your body for all the work it's done. Your body works hard for you, and double hard for the baby you're carrying, so it's OK to take moments like those in the car to just be, to regroup, and to find the energy to take those next steps. Hope you're feeling better next week!
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