13 Weeks

Well, I had a horrible sleep last night. It gets awfully uncomforatble when you can only lie on your left or right side. The left side is better for baby. Needless to say, with the growth on the front of my body, sleeping on my stomach is no longer an option. And it's bad for the baby if I sleep on my back, it creates bad blood circulation to the uterus. I am apparently usually all over the place when I sleep, it's hard to get used to only two positions. Plus I get stiff in those postitions. Body pillows help, but they're not the same.

Another change are my hips. When I was walking yesterday I felt an uncomfortable air pocket in my right hip. Apparently that means my hip joints are beginning to loosen to prepare for the birth. Very uncomfortable process. With that though, is pain around my hips and lower back. Apparently those are my muscles ripping in preparation for my growth, lovely.

I also have aonther new concern. Labor... I've done it before, all natural. I couldn't then and still can't justify drugging myself up for the birth of my child. I work damn hard throughout my pregnancy to stay heathly and take care of my body. How could I possible have drugs injected into my back in my last few hours of pregnancy. Those drugs go to my baby too. While they say it's all safe... it's still a drug and that's not ok. Women's bodies were made to create life and give birth. Drugs during labor are just an excuse. We are capable of doing it naturally. Now I would never say anything to those who choose drugs over natural, in fact none of my friends or family have had natural birth, this is just my preference. So here's my issue though. I feel the first time I did it, I could convince myself that's what our bodies are made for and that I could do it. I also didn't know what it would be like. And I did do it, thankfully I had the great support of my finace too, that is a must! But now that I know what is going to happen in the delivery room and how much it is going to hurt... I'm scared! It is called labor for a reason! It is extremely hard work to give birth, not to mention painful! Despite my fears, I am definetly going to have another natural childbirth. I just need to keep reminding myself, I did it once and I can do it again.

26 Weeks until baby! 6 day until our wedding!